Day 1-7

Day 1
Day 2
Day 3
Day 4
Day 5
Day 6
Day 7

Day 1:

Great class, no expectations, felt free and good.  Migraine when waking up the next morning.

Day 2:

Great class, went in with no expectations, warrior very challenging but did it properly and did beach ball with better alignment.  Learning how to stack my arms better in eagle pose.  Camel pose brought up some anger, but that’s okay.

Day 3:

Don’t know why, but was totally amped up before class.  Stood outside class waiting with the others and almost felt nervous and uneasy.  I had weird electric energy.   As we were sitting trying to form our intention I just simply thought – I’m not going to fight this, I’m going to work it.  All I could think of was the phrase “janked up”, like I was janked up.  I realized today I meant JACKED up.  Oh well.  It didn’t seem to affect my poses or breathing, in fact, everything was quite steady and had a good class and worked hard.

There was  girl beside me who was doing her first hot class and kept looking over at me in disbelief, wanting a partner in crime to laugh at the absurdity of some of the poses.  I smiled at her a few times but needed to concentrate.  However, I wanted to talk and laugh with her – I rarely find cool people at yoga who are open to chatting unfortunately.  So I completed day 3.  It’s the second time I’ve done three classes in a row.  Tonight will be four in a row – something which I have never done before.  I’m on my way!

Day 4:

Went to a different class at an earlier time.  Was so busy I didn’t even get a locker.  Am so glad I go late at night – I would hate that place if I had to go during the day!  The teacher was weird and not very good.  However, I was able to immediately come into my own focus and mostly ignore him.

I broke one of my own personal records - going four days in a row to yoga! And intead of feeling exhausted and sick of it like I thought I might – I actually am enjoying this, feel more energized, more focused, and really excited.  I am sticking to the “desires versus expectations” and EXPECTING this to continue.  If only I didn’t have my period, I would feel so much better.  I feel like a truck ran over me, or that I wish one would.  NOT due to yoga, due to period tiredness and grossness.  I notice my Dancer’s Pose (but in Shandy backbend mode) came a little easier today, yet Camel was tough and I only did it once.  We did Tree Pose (YAY!) but I found it very hard to balance and keep focused, even though that’s one of my favorite poses, and we rarely do it in class.

Day 5:

Wow – got through Day 5 and I feel great!  My warrior pose was laughable.  But somehow I don’t get upset when I screw up in Warrior.  I guess maybe because it’s just a pose that is “nothing” to me.  I don’t attach any meaning to it, so when I screw up I don’t feel so bad.  Which is very interesting because it would be boring to feel that way about every pose, but maybe that is how you are supposed to feel in every pose?  Unattached?  But being unattached to something to me means….feeling nothing.  I don’t want to feel nothing!  Would you?

I had a new teacher I have never had before.  She was covering for Shandy Rae and said that Shandy told her to “play music through the class”.  So she did – LOUD.  It was actually awesome.  It really, really energized me and at the end she BLARED Mazzy Star in savasana which you would think would be annoying but really it was awesome.  I just FELL into the floor and relaxed with Mazzy Star filling my every sweat-filled pore and sinking my shoulders into the floor.

The class was sooo empty too – awesome.  I could see myself entirely in the mirror which really helped.  I feel a good vibe and connection with the class – Saturday nights are going to be good!  I was wearing the same pants as yesterday without washing them and feeling gross about it, until I heard the yoga teacher saying she was wearing the same outfit four times in a row and just letting it dry in between.  hahaha.  Hey man, if I had a washer/dryer in my apartment I would totally wash things every day.  But usually I just wash out my top and wear the pants for two classes.  This is only for the challenge of course, because I have four pants for going four times weekly which works out great.

Anyway, I can feel my Dancer’s Pose coming along nicely in the Shandy backbend style.  I felt an electric nervous energy before class again – why?  Very wierd.  I’m thinking either it’s because I have my period and it’s making me feel weird, or because of going every single day and I’m excited about it.

Day 6

Wow, I cannot believe I finished Day 6.  What I find interesting is that the poses I can do strongly change every single time I hit the mat.  My Eagle and Dancer’s poses were off-balance and my Warrior was strong!

Now, it could have been because of these stupid idiot guys in front of me.  They were tall, lanky, no shape bodies with spandex and no shirts, and they had all these ropes and straps next to their mats and towels that didn’t fit their mats.  Every pose they tried to get into and kept falling out all awkwardly and dramatically and falling to the floor and slipping on their mats.  It was ridiculous.  They were soooo distracting because they were right in front of me, and through the balancing series even the girls beside me kept falling out because, one look at them and we all started wobbling.

So thanks guys, for ruining everything with your ridiculous behavior.

Also – people kept walking out!  Back and forth walking out – even the teacher was like “please don’t walk around people during the balancing series!”  She left out the “….IDIOTS!” part.

It was the weirdest most fidgety class I have ever been to.  It felt like I was in a class with a bunch of 5-year-olds.  Oh, and it was super super busy for a Sunday night!  Usually no one comes on Sundays but it was packed and sweaty with no room.  Annoying.

HOWEVER – the good part is – I did it, and I feel great.  I thought I would be exhausted and dying by Day 6, but in fact I feel the opposite.  I feel so much energy, and lots of excitement, and lots of focus.  My body loves this!

Day 7:

I did it. SEVEN DAYS IN A ROW. BOO-YAH!  21 days to go! haha.  The only thing I would say about this is that I’m exhausted.  However, I don’t think it’s due to yoga but due to the bad sleeps.  although maybe the bad sleeps are due to too much yoga?  Too much body exhaustion?  Like when a runner trains for a marathon?  I don’t know.  Maybe it’s just a coincidence.

Anyhoodles.  It was a good class, different teacher subbing in.  She was okay.  She asked who was doing the 30-day challenge and then smiled at me very approvingly when I raised my hand….I felt special

I notice my Chair Pose (awkward) (Utkatasana) is going super deep in the last few days.  That’s about the only pose I see changing.  Oh, and my Shandy-style Dancer’s pose is coming along, although kinda hurting my lower back.  Otherwise, the rest of the poses are about the same.  Nothing changing AT ALL in my backbends – why?

And after class when I went to pick up my coconut water from the store I came out and a homeless guy made me laugh about the awkward position of the “in” and “out” doors.  I filled up my water bottle with the can of coconut water and then went to put it near the garbage can and he said nicely and softly “could you spare some change” and my heart literally just broke.

So I pulled out $2 and put it in his hat, and as I was in the process of doing that two things happened simultaneously:

1) He said “I just need $8 more to get a warm bed for the night”

and

2) I noticed his hat was dirty and it busted up my heart even more.

However, I had already given him the $2 and started walking away and as I walked tears came into my eyes and I thought I just should have given him $10.  so I cried a little bit on the way home for him.

I don’t know why he got to me – damn yoga making me a softie!!