Well my friends, it has been a while. A long while. It is the end of the year, and what an interesting year it has been. I won’t reflect on all the changes I have been through, but needless to say I’ve learned a lot.
One of the things I have learned is that life goes where IT wants YOU to go. Not the other way around. Instead of spending all of your energy fighting that fact, you have to be mindful of the clues it is giving you.
Clues = options.
Like Rachel Zoe said (and I can’t believe I’m quoting a celebrity and reality TV star) you always gotta have options. She was referring to fashion (and btw that’s actually a fabulous tip fashion-wise, I use it all the time) but I use it for life too. There is nothing worse than feeling like you are backed into a corner in your life and that you don’t have options.
I think of it as a flowchart. I LOVE flow carts, and I never understood why until now. Look at this thing.
Beautiful!! That’s what life should look like.
So I made a decision career-wise, and I hate to say this, but I extended my prison sentence job for another year. Not because it pays well or is a good job, but it’s a huge opportunity that will, in turn, give me way more opportunities than just going back to my old job and having maybe one or two options.
My life flowchart has much more… flow now.
As for diet and exercise, we won’t even go there right now. All I would be able to tell you is about failure and disappointment and guilt and nonexistence. What I have realized though, is that I need to break up with food. I have a dysfunctional relationship with food, and I really should have a barely-there acquaintance-type relationship with it instead. Kind of like a relationship with a coworker you don’t really care about. You acknowledge their existence, but couldn’t care less about them. That’s what I am aiming for.
I hope to get back to yoga a few times in January, but back with full-time dedication in February.
Oh, also, I’ve given up reading all blogs that I used to except two constants. People are boring, and I don’t want to waste my time following a blog that just tries to follow the masses. I’m also tempted to delete my Facebook account too. I’m tired of these people who don’t really give a shit about me, but are able to access my life. My trip to Ontario for Xmas was very, very disappointing and made me rethink the relationship I THOUGHT I had with my entire family and friends.
So in summary, 2012 is going to be about options, and getting rid of excess fat I don’t need – and I mean that literally and figuratively of course.
To those constants in my life – I love you! Happy New Year.
